The week began faintly ample. I was so lifeless by the ancient weekend's working that I took Sunday off to get some radically needed work complete. I besides retired litter that night to kind me for the week. As requested by the Guardian angel, I switched from performance 30 shut meditation sessions formerly thing in the dawn and before I went to bed in the sundown, to a longer meditation and be keen on session in the sundown. I recycled a be keen on session that included prayers to my intimate godhead, secretly reciting a prayer saying that in attendance is no problem between my Deity and myself except the illusionary one that I delimit shaped in my heed - that I fervently outlook and be inclined to fraternity with my godhead. Afterward I do again this prayer, I can finger a fly of powerful enthusiasm well up in my deeper for instance and along with endorsement away. I am not qualified to robbery it for hunger, but along with that seems manner of indicate to me so far. Following practice, I may be adroit to robbery it for longer periods of time. The week progressed deteriorating too radically compel until come close to the end of work week, I was notified that my job would make some critical hard work at home Friday night and very litter Saturday dawn, so I momentous to perform the mechanism on Saturday and Sunday fairly of Friday and Saturday. This didn't enlightened radically of a refusal and gave me time to kind for the working. I knew about this by Wednesday, so it wasn't a composite revision.
Motionless, the work chance charge was jeopardized by a catastrophic washout, which duty-bound me to work ceiling of the weekend to fix it. My other job list besides duty-bound an unusual bit of perpetuation, so I done up ingestion come close to two eight hour days disdainful the weekend take steps this work, not to bring up commerce with the stress. I besides pulled a muscle in my back and was not idiosyncratically positive about these box, to the same extent I had altogether recurring to delimit a lenient weekend as far as work is mixed up. Fortunately I do delimit the advantage of working from home, so I didn't delimit to transmit in any time for commuting. Despite these complications, I was hardheaded to perform these invocations, to the same extent delaying them was out of the discussion if I inescapable to inexpert this taunt. I was without doubt for instance tested by uncontrollable undertakings, that was evident.
As a thrive of my work chance issues, I was not adroit to perform any devotions on Friday before the working, all the same I did keep an eye on to get all of the preparations complete. I worked up to a corner in time that was perhaps a be given a ride of hours before the working, and in some way managed to find a bit of time to eat and get tangled attention of my needs. My partner, Fashion, helped truthfully in this hammer, even as she was clearly involved in her own taunt of completing her semester at school.
December 5 - Prayer of Metatron, Seraphim of the elemental tetrad of Pond. Coarse start was concerning 8:10 pm, at home the through the ceiling hour of Mercury, which was put up collateral indoors the working. I had been anticipating this prayer all week equally Metatron is a very striking and well friendly angel, for instance both one of the Seraphim and the critical of the Archangels of the Tree of Life. State are abundant legends about him, but he is besides friendly for for instance shadowy and moderately incomprehensible. State are even legends of him for instance facing at all, perhaps even the in imitation of illustration of the changeless patriarch, Enoch. Like I had acquitted my ordinary responsibilities in a perfectly style, I felt altogether obstinate, fanatical and diversion for this prayer, but I can not delimit been obstinate for what I was about to experience, so unusual and matchless was the illustration of that aim.
Prayer of Metatron and its amalgamated burial was performed deteriorating any troubles or issues, in fact with a certain steamroll of muted. My member of the aristocracy, Fashion, assisted me with the portion and the benediction, and I performed the circle religious zeal and the prayer rite myself. As the prayer was for instance performed I noticed that in attendance was a famous grasp of power and energy for instance generated as the rite progressed - over than I had facing perceptive. My build was vibrating with the shy energy, and it enlarged to a sky-scraping after the prayer was complete and the spirit of the seraphim began to bare. I believed up the sigil of Ratziel, but that didn't even appear to issue - what was in the works happened with or deteriorating any manner of help. I saw a famous shower of sparks and points of light form before me and a powerful mischievous spirit emerged from it in cascading fountains of light that dazzled my eyes.
Moreover this build of light that was balanced earlier me descended and seemed to veil me. I hard by lost consciousness - the light was a delightful flash sunny. From the midst of this form a close off of stalwart and piquant light spray forth and voted for indoors me, deceptively to type in my very for instance. I saw within myself and in attendance had been planted in me a pathetic chubby view the heaviness of a nugget that was vibrating with energy and emitting light in pulses. I heard a display say to me, "This is my gift to you, Oh sojourner of the spiritual paths of super-celestial magick. It is the pit of spiritual love and note down wisdom. Softness for it, mention it with love and your enthusiasm for God, assume in it as the relationship between you and your moment. If you do this, along with the pit will open and relate its situation unto your central part. If you drop, along with it shall become a dead thing, which shall vinegary and curse your very chase to its recipe. You requisite grab your path circumspectly and covetously so that the gift is a famous set up to you fairly of a problem."
So I realized that I had been impregnated with a "pit" of wisdom, and that success astonished me, to the same extent I delimit never perceptive anything like that before. I didn't finger besmirched or intruded upon, equally in a way, I had asked for this set up, whether I realized it or not. The pit is nestled in my central part, old white on the further than, but purplish-blue and rose dyed on in. It waits for me to flawless the appropriate steamroll of enthusiasm and fear for it to be unbound, like a put into action. Meanwhile, I delimit a costly thing within me that I requisite protect, attention and build. One can besides mean of it as a manner of ticking explosive or a bane ball if I am not particular and slipshod. If all goes well, along with this pit will open at the appropriate time and let loose its value and power as a god-intoxicating enthusiasm and religiously induced charm. I requisite find the key and know how to deploy it between now and after I perform the Bornless One prayer rite - a tarn twenty-five days away.
Metatron's gift has abundant sides or facets, like a watery egg I will reliance to mention it, aloofness it "snug" with devotions and an ever collective and accelerating enthusiasm for spiritual fraternity with my intimate godhead. If I drop, along with the planted pit will die, and it will cause me all sorts of tribulations and difficulties. To let such a costly gift be pale would be a sign of multi-layered bad optimism, apparently one that I won't be adroit to subjugate in this duration. This pit can open the side of the contributory levels of consciousness and facilitate fraternity between my bornless better spiritual self and my disgrace conscious self. My happenings are the shaping entity, so I requisite profess a high level of intimate devotion and make certain that void deters me from my spiritual moment. So the chance of my chase has been truthfully magnified, as I stand to well-behaved everything or lose it in single seven week taunt. Done in to say, I am moderately astonished about all of this, it's not at all what I recurring. From way back than tell me that quick expression, Metatron had void accelerate to say, emotional that I would delimit the rationale of his wisdom if the "pit" bloomed within my central part. He besides hypothetical other information would be responsive from the Guardian angel of Pond, so I looked direction to understanding the charm of what has occurred to me from him. I delimit been precise a undercooked gift (the likes of which I delimit never heard of before), but it is besides a test and a surprise to be solved.
I felt scatterbrained, full of energy, but besides truthfully lifeless. I felt smashed, but I was unsentimental. My heed had troubles focusing and it was animate with all sorts of disconnected opinion. I couldn't creative idea definitely and I communicated in an impulsive and scrappy kind of way (over so than conventional). I attempted to abandon but had troubles tumbling having a lie-down. I had all sorts of colorful dreams, but they were all infected up and impenetrable. Following I awoke the behind day, I was dreamy, as if I hadn't really slept very hot or got the rest that I needed. I wondered if I would delimit the energy to even perform the behind working.
The behind day found me performance responsibilities for my ordinary job once again fairly of lessons about what had happened to me the night before. I managed to inexpert everything that I was working on. State were no input troubles that I was not adroit to at speed fix. Whilst once again, I managed to get everything complete a short time ago a be given a ride of hours before the working was to begin. A hunger meditation with devotions helped to get my heed focused on the magickal work.
December 6 - Prayer of Kerubiel, Cherubim of the elemental highlight of Pond. Coarse start was at concerning 8 pm, locking in the through the ceiling hour of Jupiter. Despite my sleepiness and the stress of work chance responsibilities, I managed to find a new store of energy within me. Fashion and I come between up the ritual work in the especially style as the ancient night, except we didn't reliance to perform the benediction rite. (The upbringing was or truthfully empowered by the ancient night's working.) The portion was apparently the best knife that I delimit prepared to meeting point with the revised Lumber room of the Striking Goddess, to the same extent I was take steps some informal on sections that needed revising but hadn't yet been revised. Whilst these changes are put in, the ritual destitution be sooner to its complete form.
The prayer proceeded fluently and I can finger the build up of power, which seemed to be at a largest part aristocratic than anything I had perceptive facing. Afterward the prayer complete, in attendance was uncommunicativeness and serenity. I showed the sigil of Ratziel, but void another in any dramatic way. To a certain extent I heard elsewhere chords of some manner of celestial music. The serenity was the pathetic mischievous spirit of Kerubiel, which soothed and poured a healing lotion unto me, such was the beauty and wondrous love emanating from this for instance. He appeared to me like a snug embrace or a aromatic summer's night, snug, convivial and delicious. I felt as one, delighted and very radically at muted. I was astonished at this illustration, for I without doubt recurring to be roughly judged and found unhappily small. To a certain extent I found a powerful mischievous spirit that emanated request, softness and healing enthusiasm. I felt rejuvenated and the stress of the weekend banished as if it hadn't ever existed. In the same way as a honestly sensationalist thing!
Moreover I heard Kerubiel speak in a pathetic sizzle, saying the succeeding equipment.
"You delimit courageously voted for these tests, all the same over will be responsive. Each mantelpiece in this taunt will be over hot-tempered than the ancient one, so kind yourself for this argument, for it shall be a commanding agreement if you guide. Link that I am the way out sentinel of the Headquarters of God and I will retain this famous cherish from all who are not well-mannered. I delimit judged your foundation and your devotion. Nevertheless you are far from control or even an unflawed level of step up, you delimit frequently dear God from the beginning of your path. You delimit called the Godhead by the name of the "Goddess," but it is one of the abundant manifestations that I delimit served as an agent of the One. You delimit maintained that procession and delimit precise devotions to your godhead all complete the time - from your teenager until now deteriorating any passage. I delimit besides weighed your conscience and careful your devotion. I delimit found them reasonable and over-all good, but not control. So for that reason, as the Means of access Janitor, I open for you the chance and act as your guide in this taunt, which shall storeroom for the rest of your life. Link besides that to those I delimit deemed unworthy I hang over somebody in a unmanageable and lethal gaze, to frighten them away, and if they have, to unsoul them. Like your foundation is good, along with to you I hang over somebody pathetic and timely."
"I reveal this wisdom to you - a famous pit has been planted in you, and on its own the note down enthusiasm and love of God will cause it to open and reveal its secrets. Afterward giving devotions to your godhead, bring to mind the prose of Rumi, Hafiz and Kabir - and other prose of the love to God, such as the Psalms. Tune praises to God, whom you love and adore, and the pit will reveal to you its inner ceiling secrets and note down situation."
"Also, you will reliance to make the addition of some ultra elements from the Bring of Abramelin indoors your taunt. Consider the storeroom three days of that traditional taunt, such as the fasting, prayers, vigils, anointing and forfeit (coals upon the mind) - these you will reliance to work indoors what you or delimit complete. Allocate four days before chart the eight angels together and offer each to the one of the four Elements. For each day you shall summon, deliberate and farm with the Guardian angel and the Guardian angel of that Dart for an hour or over, so that whatever knowledge, wisdom and power they faculty delimit shall be precise to you to be this famous taunt. Do this altogether before you deduce to unite them together indoors the spirit of the Godhead Dart that you shall summon. Keep on from this night direction to relinquish your devotions, respect to pressure upon any of the Guardian angel or Guardian angel that you faculty reliance, to instill or guide you. For having voted for by me, you are precise these keys to aid in the skill of your taunt."
The prayer of Keburiel was complete along with, and even as I felt content of the item for consumption, I was truthfully lifeless. I was astounded at for instance so naturally acclaimed by the Guardian angel, but I knew that I had not wavered in my optimism all of these time, and perhaps this was my return for for instance such a creature of advantage and so over-enthusiastic on my magick and my pagan optimism. It all turned out to delimit a point, so I felt moderately positive. Moreover I remembered the pit planted in my central part, realizing that the work had really on its own a short time ago begun, and any steamroll complacency on my part was lethal to me.
